Double Celebration

Dear Diary,

And sooo... I'm back! :D Yaaayy

But I'm still tired. Still haven't had any decent sleep since the day we left. Maybe tonight I'll sleep early to have a good night sleep I've been wanting for daysss. I'll start with my story now before I fall asleep in front of the computer. LOL

October 19, ze boyfriend picked us up at 9am but we only left the house almost 11am already because my mom and sister were too slow. Haha! We encountered a lot of traffic which is why the 2-3 hr drive became 5hr drive. Good thing the views while on the way were breathtaking. I love seeing beaches and lots of palm trees! :>

(This post has been in my draft folder for almost a week now. And this is the part where I stopped. LOL Now I'm finishing this post. I have a surprise as well to my readersss :P)

We didn't swim on the first day, for me and ze boyfriend at least. But my sister, her friend and ze boyfriend's brother swam before heading to bed. The pool closes at an early time BOO! -___- After having dinner, ze boyfriend and I walked by the shore. Just chilling and talking about random stuff. It was my favorite part of the trip. :"> Here are some photos we took:

The sunset before we all had our dinner. Amazing view right?

It was shot from the balcony of our hotel room. :>

This is ze boyfriend and I, obviously, during our alone time by the beach. :')

I posted this on my instagram and it got so many likes from our friends.

Guess the must really liked it! Hihi :P

The next day, I was the early riser. I woke up before 5am and I don't know why I did. I am usually the last one to wake up. Anywaaay, since I was sleeping beside ze boyfriend, with my mom and her friend in the other beds (yes we are all in the same room because the room has 3 beds and the maximum persons per room is 5. So we all fit in the together :D), I just stared at him for the next 20minutes until ze boyfriend realized I was awake already. He then asked me to go out and watch the sunrise with him. Awww moment again! LOL

This is our bed by the way. It is called bay bed in the hotel. I didn't bother asking why it's called like that.

Nice right? I'm pretty sure you are wondering about the view from the window...

Check out the next photo ;)

 Well here it is. :D

Seriously, it's paradise in that place!!

(I'm getting the tricks in taking photos in my Canon D1000 Yaaayy!)

After breakfast, we started swimming in the beach. We did snorkeling! Though I didn't enjoy that much because I'm scared of what's under the water, it still felt good because ze boyfriend was holding my hand the whole time. :) We also swam in the pool and played beach volleyball. It was funnn!

And sooo... This is my surprise. :D

I edited this so that you can't still see my face. Haha! That's me before going out for a swim.

We left the paradise at noon and arrived home before the sun sets. It was really refreshing having that kind of vacation after all the hard work we did in the past 6 months. Everything's worth it! By the way, I'm officially done with Uni. College is oveeerrr! >:))

Happiness overload,

Secret Diary Keeper

Brisbane, Australia

Dear Diary,

Good morning dearies! An hour from now, we'll be leaving the city to go to the beach which is around 3-4 hr drive. Yet, I am still not ready. I haven't packed my bags, my new swimsuit is still in the shopping bag, and I am still in my jammies.=)) While ze boyfriend and his brother are already ready to go and will pick us up any time now. LOL This is the part I don't like about travelling... Packing my bags. How I wish I could just bring my whole closet with me. :P

Oh by the way, the other company I was applying for a month ago has already hired my blockmate. This is what happened last month. When I applied for that job, I wasn't expecting anything. On the day of my interview, as I was writing in the log book of the company building, another woman came and asked the receptionist that she has a schedule interview with the company. So as I finished writing my name and other unnecessary details, the other woman called my name with a shock in her voice. To my surprise, it was my blockmate, to whom I never got the chance to be close with. Maybe because she was always not around the class or maybe we are just too different for each other. So we had our interview together with the Australian CFO of the Australian company. It was fun because the the hiring process was a lot different than the usual interviews I have been invited in. After the interview, they told us just to wait for their call and so we did. 3weeks of waiting, our classes ended already then they called me. I thought they was about to hire me but they were just informing me to wait a little further since they are still deciding. I came out honest to them. I told them that JPMC has already hired me and I confirmed which is why I am not interested in their job offer if ever there will be. They said okay and thankyou but a little regret was in the back of my mind. It is only that company that offers me training to Brisbane, Australia. Amazing, right? But I don't know. My heart has always wanted JPMC since I was a sophomore in College.

And today, it is my blockmate's birthday, the woman who got invited by the Australian company, the one who called my name when I was writing in the log book on the day of the interview. I am talking to her right now and she told me that she got hired last week, on the day I told the company that I was rejecting them.

I am happy for my blockmate. :D I am happy that the position was given to her instead of someone I don't know. I am happy that I chose JPMC, because it has been always my dream. Lastly, I am happy because at least we are both in a win-win situation. ;) We are both blessed to have a job that offers a high compensation and good benefits. So to you, Kamille, Happy birthday and may you have an awesome day today! >:D<

Alright, I need to pack now. Someone is also waiting for this post! Hihi. Have a great day, folks! xx



Leaving on a jetplane,
Secret Diary Keeper

What's in store for today?

Dear Diary,

I woke up a bit later than my normal wake up time. To my surprise, I received a message from our block's president. She informed us that in our Management Accounting subject, 3 students in our class failed. Meaning, those 3 persons won't graduate this semester. Yes I know. That horrible feeling you get when you know the fact that someone has failed and you don't know who it is. Uugghh the suspense. I am seriously hoping it's not me. I wish I am not one of those three!! :'( Oh dear God, please let me pass. Please let me graduate! *sigh*

God is good. He will forever be the greatest! That is why today, I've decided that instead of fretting over something I am clueless about, I'll remain to be faithful to Him and just trust all of His plans for me. :"> I know I will pass. I'm not being overly optimistic, but I am just being positive in all things in life. I won't settle for any negative thing that pops in my head, even how strong my overthinking can be. God has made the world so beautiful, so why make it crappy? Just remember the power of attraction. The thing that you think about the most is the thing that would most likely happen. :> So let's all be positive!

Later today, ze boyfriend and I will be running errands for my mom. We'll get the car that we will use for tomorrow's beach outing. Aaaackk! I am excited about tomorrow! Oh how I miss the beach life... We are even planning to snorkel just so ze boyfriend will experience it. Hihi  Then we'll drop by at the mall today to buy swimsuits since the last time we went to the mall, there were no pretty bikinis. Yes, I'll try to sport a bikini. :P

I gotta finish my 1 month free time to-do list today! There are just some stuff I want to do with my free time. I am listing them down so I won't forget. I am not sure if I'll be able to blog tomorrow, but if not, I'll tell you everything about our trip on Saturday night! Keep safe and have a lovely day, sweet pea



Excited and hopeful,
Secret Diary Keeper



P.S. Please pray for my grades. Please pray for me that I'll pass all my subjects... Please? Thanks in advance, hunnies :>

Forever Blessed

Dear Diary,

I have an amazing news! Ze boyfriend passed the board exams! Yayyy It really feels so good knowing the thing that you worked so hard for is now all yours. Eeeekk! Both of us are beyond happy right now. It's all because of God's grace! :D You know what, I was crying when my friends told me that he passed the exam. Then I called him up to tell him the big news. He was really ecstatic about it but since he was driving that time, he couldn't do any happy jumps or dance moves as sign of his happiness. LOL He just said, "Really?! I passed? Shit. I'm speechless but I feel like crying." Hahaha I know he really worked extra hard for this and now... He a Certified Public Accountant. :">

So our plans on Friday are pushing through! Another yay to that! I'm excited about it! It has been months (or a year already?) since I last went to the beach. A vacation is what we both need! Woohoo!

By the way, I went to my friend's party last night. It became some sort of a block farewell party. I just realized how much I'll miss my blockmates and friends. Awww :( But last night was a blast! We sang all through the night, that's why my throat now feels a bit sore. Ouch! Although by the end of the night, there were some realizations in my mind relating to ze boyfriend's passing exam. Anywaaay, that's nothing to be bothered about. :P

I'm heading out tonight with mom to watch a movie. Too bad ze boyfriend couldn't come. He's too busy now! LOL Speaking of busy, I think I must get myself busy as well. There are a lot of things I have to finish before I start working. :> Goodluck with me on that! Keep safe, unicorns! xx



Craving for attention (why oh why?),
Secret Diary Keeper

Bum Life :)

Dear Diary,

Oh I know... It's been a while. Again. LOL But now, I have all the time to do what I want to do. Aaahhh, how I miss this kind of days... Anyway, let's start with all the blabbling and talking. :P

My classes officially ended last Thursday. I had a bittersweet feeling about it. Bitter, because I won't get to see all of my blockmates and close friends everyday anymore since we are all going separate ways from that day on. Another reason is how difficult all our exams were! I had 3 exams that day, 1 hour for each. It was literally a mind wreck! HAHA All of those exams were my major subjects. The first one, Advanced Accounting was a so-so since I studied for it intensively. I even asked an old friend and ze boyfriend (Yes, we are now okay. Yayy to that!) to tutor me. :P The theories part of that exam was the downer. I failed to finish the theories part because of lack of time. -____- I hate time pressure. LOL But the problem solving, well, I did well... I think. I hope so? Haha! Then the second exam was Management Accounting (main subject for my course). It was really difficult! I am 50-60% sure for all the answers I wrote but the rest... Uhh, forget it. :( The last subject was Financial management. Well that one was plain wrong. I mean, not me wrong but the exam itself. The coverage given to us was different from the coverage used in the exam. It became some sort of a review of our past, past lessons. It was like a test of all the things we have learned in the past 3years. Oh geez, I really hope I pass all my subjects!! Cos if I do, I'm off to work in the corporate world!!!

About ze boyfriend and I... We managed to work it out, again. :> That's what I like about us. Even how worse our fight is, we always make way to fix issues between us. I am happy to have him in my life. :')

In the past few days, the travel bug bit me again. I keep on planning vacations with my family, friends, and of course, ze boyfriend. Our 3day-Singapore trip next summer is turned into 5-6day Singapore-Malaysia trip. Woohoo! :D It all because of the newly opened theme parks in Johor Bahru, MY--Hello Kitty Town and LegoLand.<3 I looove theme parks! I know ze boyfriend does too but he's a bit afraid of roller coasters.=)) Then on friday, we have a planned family outing, in celebration for my graduation and ze boyfriend's board exams results. But (a BIG BUT), we need to know the results first. Oh my, I really hope he pass! I hope we both pass!

So far, that's pretty everything I have to say. I am seriously and sincerely hoping for the best! This will be the longest waiting time we have to do. So please! Please... Please pray for us!! Thank you in advance, hunnies! xx

Cheers to the bum life!



Patiently waiting and hoping,
Secret diary keeper

Even the strongest falls down sometimes.

Dear Diary,

I've been trying not to miss him... But I just can't hold it in anymore. I want to cry. I miss him so much. :( It's wrong to miss him because he doesn't deserve it. But in the battle between Love and Respect? Well, Love always wins even if it's not right anymore. That's why I miss him.

I don't know what to do anymore. I want to feel the rage of anger I used to feel last Thursday night but God healed me so fast that I don't feel any anger anymore. It's difficult being in this situation. This is the first time that I'm not talking to him for daysss.

Oh it is really hard when you get used to something or someone being there all the time. Well, I guess I just need to start getting used to being independent from now on.

But for today... Can I just miss him and cry? This sucks.



Suppressing all the depression,
Secret Diary Keeper :'(

Need to get this out of my chest.

Dear Diary,

Uggghhh I can be really stupid sometimes. I hate it so much when I look dumb to other people, most especially if they are my boss or someone higher than my rank. Sh*t -____-

It's like this. I was answering the online thingy form and the system doesn't want me to continue to the next step. To think that I did everything right. (Or so I thought) So I texted my HR, telling her about the system error. She's not replying (bec I think it's too early for her to be awake) so I tried to figure it out myself. Then for a split second, I suddenly realized what's wrong. The form follows a certain number format on the contact details part which I entered wrongly. How stupid :|

What's worse about it is I kept on bugging my HR about it before I figured it out. I messaged her for like three times about it? I am seriously embarrassed right now. :(

Care to cheer me up?



Worrying so many stuff,
Secret Diary Keeper

Stronger Than Ever

Dear Diary,

To be honest, I'm not in my happy state right now. I feel like I'm going to catch a cold, extremely sleep deprived and tired from all the work I need to do, and most of all.... Ze boyfriend and I aren't in good terms right now. Or maybe I should call him now, ze ex-boyfriend? Oh I don't know. Last night was a whirlwind nightmare! I just want to forget about it. However, there are a lot of things to be happy about as well. First off is my mom's birthday yesterday. Even if ze boyfriend and I had the huge fight during mom's birthday celebration, I'm still thankful that Mom's happy. :) Second is the grade we got for the major movie report we did for weeks. All the hard work paid off! Wooo :D  Lastly, I got lots of friends who are ready to cheer me up in times like these. I'm blessed for having God, my family and my friends in my life! :">

I should be working on my online onboarding form for JPMC right now. But unfortunately, my sister is using the desktop so I still have to wait for her to finish her homework first. I can't do it here on my lappy because I need a printer connected since I have to print some important documents. What's worse about it, is the link for the online form only lasts for 48hours. Therefore, I must get up early tomorrow morning to finish it! Good thing I'm done with the other requirements. Yayyy

Tomorrow is a new day. It is his big day too, his board exams. If he pass those exams, his life will totally change. More opportunities will come and he will be a Certified Public Accountant. Amazing, eh? :> I wished him good luck earlier but what a hurtful response I got from him. :( Whew anyway, as I said, tomorrow is a new day. Another day, another hope. :)

HOPE -- Hold on, pain ends. Good night! xx

Excited for bed time,
Secret Diary Keeper

Keeping the Faith

Dear diary,

I can't believe it's already October. Happy October 1st everyone! This month is exciting and scary at the same time.

Today was beyond tiriiing!!! Seriously, it was one long heck of a day. But it was a good day! :D I started my day at 7am (which was surprising, by the way since, I don't like getting up from the bed at least 8am :P) to go to the main office to get something for my job requirements. Good thing the processing of it was faster than I expected because JPM has their connections. Oh yeah, the perks. ;)

After the going to the main office, I went right away to JPM office to sign my contract. YES! I confirmed and now, I'm legally an employee of the firm. Yaaayy But since I'm still an undergraduate and haven't completed all my hiring requirements, I couldn't start immediately. Awww boo-hoo! In God's time, in His plans, I would eventually start. Maybe by the 3rd wk of Oct or 1st wk of November. :>

I also failed to attend my first class in Uni because I had to wait for my friend who was scheduled for an interview in the same company. She was scheduled at 3pm and she finished almost 6pm. My class starts at 5pm which is why I didn't make it to first period. :( Therefore, I must work extra hard for all the absences I incurred. And for me to get high/passing mark by the end of the term. *fingers crossed* Pray for meee! :)

I just want to update you guys even just for a little bit. So far it's the most blog-worthy thing I could share. Hope you all had a good day! Good night I must finish editing a video report to be presented tomorrow. It's late. I'm tired. I'm sleepy. But I have to do this. SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK, ya'know. :P


Forever blessed,
Secret Diary Keeper