Almost is never enough

Dear Diary,

I've been listening and obsessing over this song over the past couple of days. I didn't know that Ariana Grande had released her album since I thought she was just another actress on the TV show, Victorious. Turns out, she has this really amazing voice which I think is much better than Victoria Justice's. She also sings a lot like Mariah Carey. I'm not really sure if it is just me or she really does have a resemblance with Mariah Carey, in terms of singing of course.

Almost is Never Enough - Ariana Grande

Go ahead and watch the music video of Almost is Never Enough by Ariana Grande. This is definitely my favorite right now! And this is my type of song that I could listen to while working. It's just relaxing and such a feel good song. :')


Singing my heart out,
Secret Diary Keeper

Blog Guide

Dear diary,

Just got home from the church with ze boyfriend. Yeah, we attend mass every Sunday together. So basically, we see each other almost every single day of the week. Not that I'm complaining! Haha! I actually love it! Sometimes I feel like we're becoming Marshall and Lily (How I Met Your Mother series) that we are already co-dependents. Though not to the extent of cheering on each other when the other is taking a shit in the toilet.... Yet. Lol Just kidding :P And oh, I spent my whole weekend watching HIMYM series. I'm now on Season 3 and it's my... 3rd time to watch all the episodes. Haha! (You can tell now that I am fond of that show! Like, really.)

As for my title, well, I'm back to using my laptop now and I saw some screenshots I took months ago. I think I was planning to do this before but never did since I didn't use my laptop very often and the screenshots were saved in here. So, I'm doing it now. :)

Here are some parts of my page which I think you guys haven't noticed.

You could see that there is a 'Shoutout' link at my right sidebar. If you hover your mouse over it, you will see there are: 'Entries, About, Past and Shoutout'. Entries works like a 'home' where it brings you back to the actual page of my blog just like the first time you opened it. About is just a page for the definition of myself if you want to get to know me better. But for this case, I just posted a sketched photo of a girl who doesn't even look like me. Or does it? ;) Past is like the archive where you could read my old blog posts. Lastly, when you click on 'Shoutout', it will lead you to another page. See the next photo. :>

This is the Shoutout page. You could leave a message in here, or just say hi if ever you stumble in to my little world. I would greatly appreciate if you would! <3

This part is unimportant but just want to shareee. HAHA! I have added a 'Newer Posts' and 'Older Posts' on the footer or bottom of my page. Just the same with some Tumblr themes, for easier back-reading. ;)

That's it. Nothing much to say since nothing interesting happened this weekend. Except for How I Met Your Mother. Haha! By the way, Happy Grandparents' Day to all grandmom and granddad in the world!

Not excited for Monday,

Secret Diary Keeper

Gotta love Fridays!

Dear Diary,

It's Friday! Yay!

I got a call from my boss asking me how I've been doing and all that sorts of stuff. I told him that I was already done with all the tasks assigned to me and I was free to do another financial plan. For those who are wondering about my work, I work as a paraplanner/financial adviser. Yeah, I deal with money and finances of individuals all day everyday. I realized that there are lots of people prioritizing  their future income and making sure they'll be able to cover all their debts whenever something happens to them. Alright, I'll stop blabbing about my work now. So yeah, my boss called and we had a little chitchat. I also asked him about the online classes that I'll be taking to gain the Diploma for Financial Planning. I felt a bit embarrassed because I sounded like I was demanding him to enter me in Kaplan. Kaplan is a professional education provider with locations all around the world. My boss mentioned about it during my hiring interview and asked me if it would be okay for me to take online classes while working for him. Of course, I said yes. Who would pass up the chance to study and gain more credentials, right? Thought it was a good time to ask him about it since I've  been working for his company for a month now and I have lots of free time today. So he did enroll me. Right away! I received the invoice of my enrollment fees and my log in details to the site (virtual class) then I felt a pang of guilt. It costed him so much to let me study financial planning. I know he'll benefit from it but still. Get what I mean? I sent my boss an email after, thanking him for everything. Haha! Yes, I am that appreciative. :P

I am officially back to school! Not really an actual school though. I'll take online classes, do assignments and pass all the assessment exams. I have 4 subjects and every subject will be taken for 3 months. So technically, it's a 1-year course. I really hope I do well in this! I will surely be a lot busier now with all the work and study at the same time... but no complaints! Still very grateful with every opportunity that I get. :D

Later, I'll be reading all the manuals sent until I'm done with work. I finish off work at 4pm (early right?) but I don't have plans for tonight. It's ze boyfriend's sister's birthday today but I'm not sure if ze boyfriend will be going since he's on a seminar all day today. So for sure, he'll be stuck in the office after that, doing all his backlogs. (He's a CPA :>)

There you go! Hope you all are having a great friday as mine! Ciao xx


Homeschooling while working,
Secret Diary Keeper

We cannot change the past

Dear diary,

For those who haven't read my previous post, I have revealed my real name. Okay, it's a nickname but it's still part of my whole real name. That's a progress for those who are wondering of my identity, right? So yeah. Hi, my name is Jane. But I'd still use my 'Secret Diary Keeper' as my alias of some sort. Ha! I feel like a professional writer now.

Last night, I had a hard time falling asleep. Then I wandered on Instagram and searched for random people from the past just to see what their present lives are like. Alright, I'll admit, I just stalked people from Ze boyfriend's past. Haha! Paranoia creeps in whenever I'm being insomaniac. I finally discovered the Instagram account of ze boyfriend's "ex-bestfriend". They used to be really close, but when ze boyfriend had his first relationship, they just drifted apart. Then when he broke up with his first girlfriend, they began seeing each other again.

Then I entered the picture.

Ze boyfriend and I got really close since he's back to being single. Sometimes, you just couldn't hang out with other people (women in particular) if you are in a relationship. So yeah, we became friends, had the same clique, we hung out almost everyday and we go to school and back home together. I didn't mind him being around me all the time since I used to have a lot of guys friends who are constantly with me. As a matter of fact, I am more of a guy friend than a girlfriend. Being friends with guys is more fun and less dramatic. I still have few girlfriends though! I'm still not that kind of biatch who just wants to be around guys and be pretty all day long. Haha! Anyway, back to my story. Since we became close friends, it eventually led to becoming best of friends. I know, too childish. But he really is. He knows every single secret that I have! Even the deepest, darkest ones. And for some reason, he stopped texting or seeing his "old bestfriend". Alright, let's name her... Jewel. I have never met Jewel in person. I have only seen her posts and comments on ze boyfriend's Friendster (yeah way way back) and Facebook. She seemed nice, fun... and flirty. She kept messaging ze boyfriend to meet up with her even if she knows he was in a relationship with me already. She calls ze boyfriend "hubby/honey/love" and other terms of endearment. Yeah, that b*tch! (I'm getting carried away now lol) She's that kind of flirt. And even if ze boyfriend didn't text her back, she freakin' had the guts to call and demand to text her! And oh yeah, have I told her she's such a flirt? Okay. I think you totally get what I mean now.

Sorry for hating but I just could not stand her ways. She had never been ze boyfriend's girlfriend but she acts like she's the wife! To be honest, I am more in good terms with ze boyfriend's ex girl friend (for real). Well, she was my classmate in Uni but yeah, we're friends - not that close though.

So yeah, I found Jewel's instagram account and I discovered that she's already married and a baby is on the way. I think she's 5 or 6 months pregnant now. When I saw her big bumbum (that's how she calls her pregnant belly) photo, a part of me rejoiced and jumped for joy. Like, yeah she's married!!! At least she won't try to steal away ze boyfriend anymore! Haha! And if she ever does attempt, you'll just see her on the obituary pages of our local newspaper. (Oopsie. I have killed her in my head multiple times anyway. LOL Oh dear, I am now becoming aggressive and more like Lily of How I Met Your Mother series)

But still, I am amazed on how Jewel managed to travel around the world without having an actual real job. I actually don't know if she finished school. All I know is she's a flirt. Nah, kidding. I think she studied cosmetics in college (Source: Ze boyfriend). I really have no idea! Right now, she's in Sydney (Ugghh! Why does she have to live there? Now I am having second thoughts living in Australia with ze boyfriend because of her.) according to her IG account. I am following her because I like her travel posts. And I keep my enemies closer. Ha! See what I did there?!!

Here is her bumbum photo from her Instagram account.

(I hope she never finds this blog site. Haha!)

Despite all the hating, I just can't do anything about ze boyfriend's past. Jewel was part of it and she had somehow contributed something to the kind of man who I love now. There is nothing I can do or change now, but to accept her being part of the past. But if she ever enters our future, well... That's a different story.


Keeping perspective,
Secret Diary Keeper



P.S.
Thanks for my friend Laurie for saving me from being depressed this morning. She patiently listened to me rant about this. Hihi! Love ya, gurl xx

Almost There

Dear Diary,

I have always been the kind of person who wants to learn and master everything all at once. Because there is a part of me which could not stand not comprehending all the things that should be learned. I know I am not perfect so I don't try to be, but as much as possible, I want to be in my best self. Especially when it comes to school and career. Don't wanna brag but I had been an A+ student since kindergarten. Back then, I don't study just because I want to be recognized by everyone nor I want to receive a medal or a ribbon of appreciation. I study because I enjoy it and it brings me fulfillment, even I was just a kid. I even still can remember telling myself that I don't think I could learn how to read fast, or write legibly. That's why I worked hard so that I could sing along with my mom in the karaoke machine, or I could write in my diary quickly before someone sees me writing on my journal. I was that dreamer, who wants to progress instensively in anything.

But then I entered Uni - College. My most dreaded moment came, the time when I didn't want to study anymore because even how hard I tried, I still failed. Countless times. Because of that, I somehow lost interest in studying. I just studied for the sake of passing the exams and be done with College. How I wish I could bring back time and change my perspective on my College years. I guess you could say that I lost my motivation to learn. I didn't have the same drive that I used to have when I was younger. To be honest, sometimes I think that the younger me is better than the present me.

Anywaaay, I don't know why I said those things. I just really want to share how happy that my boss recognizes my efforts to do all the best I could do in my work. :') I have been aiming for a perfect financial plan since day one, but then everyone has to undergo adjustment period. So I had a lot of mistakes in my first 3 plans. But with this kind of acknowledgment, I think my motivation has been revived! :D

This is my conversation with my boss on Skype. And yes, my name is Jane! :)

Trying to be the best,

Secret Diary Keeper