Almost There

Dear Diary,

I have always been the kind of person who wants to learn and master everything all at once. Because there is a part of me which could not stand not comprehending all the things that should be learned. I know I am not perfect so I don't try to be, but as much as possible, I want to be in my best self. Especially when it comes to school and career. Don't wanna brag but I had been an A+ student since kindergarten. Back then, I don't study just because I want to be recognized by everyone nor I want to receive a medal or a ribbon of appreciation. I study because I enjoy it and it brings me fulfillment, even I was just a kid. I even still can remember telling myself that I don't think I could learn how to read fast, or write legibly. That's why I worked hard so that I could sing along with my mom in the karaoke machine, or I could write in my diary quickly before someone sees me writing on my journal. I was that dreamer, who wants to progress instensively in anything.

But then I entered Uni - College. My most dreaded moment came, the time when I didn't want to study anymore because even how hard I tried, I still failed. Countless times. Because of that, I somehow lost interest in studying. I just studied for the sake of passing the exams and be done with College. How I wish I could bring back time and change my perspective on my College years. I guess you could say that I lost my motivation to learn. I didn't have the same drive that I used to have when I was younger. To be honest, sometimes I think that the younger me is better than the present me.

Anywaaay, I don't know why I said those things. I just really want to share how happy that my boss recognizes my efforts to do all the best I could do in my work. :') I have been aiming for a perfect financial plan since day one, but then everyone has to undergo adjustment period. So I had a lot of mistakes in my first 3 plans. But with this kind of acknowledgment, I think my motivation has been revived! :D

This is my conversation with my boss on Skype. And yes, my name is Jane! :)

Trying to be the best,

Secret Diary Keeper